clear or not clear is better ?

after watched a movie at PPS by yesterday night...
this thought just keep bugging me at my mind.
is it really important to make it clear that she is your friend or more than a friend ?
is it after getting into best friend condition , the relationship can't go any further ?
or is it need to make it very clear that she is more than a friend to me ?
but all these doesn't help me anymore for now...
as...
1 thing for sure...
i had not make that clear.
end up the relationship become a friend, and i miss that chance about 2 years ago ?
or is it i did not even try to appreciate the chance / opportunity given to me ?
i just let it go ?
but for the second thing that i am sure that is
if there is chance in future , i will grab it and never let it go anymore...
as i doesn't wan to waste a opportunity anymore.
choose between friend ? further relationship ? best friend ???

ps : currently listening to
GDragon - Heartbreaker
T.T

GD - Heart breaker lyrics.

AYO!
FINALLY!
IS THIS WHAT YOU’VE BEEN WAITING FOR? (BRAND NEW GD)
I’M ALL BY MYSELF, BUT IT’S ALL GOOD
YOU’RE MY HEARTBREAKER (DJ AND YG)
LET ME TAKE THIS SONG

Nado eodiseo kkullijin anheo
Ajik sseulmanhan geol jukji anhasseo
Neohana ttaemune manggajin mom
Sarajin kkum motchatneun mam
Neol wihaeseoramyeon i han mom nallyeo
Niga inneun gosimyeon dallyeo
Hajiman geudaen naege annyeong tto annyeong

Neon naega shiltago
Iyuga mwonyago
Jasininneun nipyojeongi modeungeol malhaejwo seulpeugehae
Geuraedo jotago
Gihoereul dallaedo
Hanbeon doraseon nimoseup chagaun geu nunbichi shireoyo

NO NO
YOU’RE MY HEART HEART HEART HEART HEART BREAKER naega mwoljalmotaenneunji
YOU’RE MY HEART HEART HEART HEART HEART BREAKER NO WAY NO WAY

Naega neol tteonagandaedo (AY)
Naneun jeongmal gandago (AY)
Jalsanabojago (AY) (LOVERS AND HATERS)
Jigeutjigeutjigeutae ppigeutppigeutppigeutae
Naesarangui bigeuge NO WAY

Maeil ttokgachi mutneunde
Neon naega byeonhaetdago hae gajingseureon ipdamullae
Sangdaega nugunji algo malhae
Nan ije OUT OF CONTROL honjaseo gyesokmitto
Geujari geugoseseo annyeong tto annyeong

Neon naega sirtago
Iyuga mwonyago
Hwaganan ni moksori modeungeol boyeojwo seulpeugehae
Geuraedo jotago
Gihoereul dallago
Hanbeon doraseon nimoseup chagaun geu misoga miwoyo

NO NO
YOU’RE MY HEART HEART HEART HEART HEART BREAKER naega mwoljalmotaenneunji
YOU’RE MY HEART HEART HEART HEART HEART BREAKER NO WAY NO WAY

Naega neol tteonagandaedo (AY)
Naneun jeongmal gandago (AY)
Jalsanabojago (AY) (LOVERS AND HATERS)
Jigeutjigeutjigeutae ppigeutppigeutppigeutae
Naesarangui bigeuge

I’LL STILL STILL BE THERE(kkeojin ni jeonhwagie)
I’LL STILL STILL BE THERE (naejibap pyeonjihame)

Nan ajikdo geudael(ijen namira haedo)

I WILL STILL BE THERE

WOOO~

Yeongwonhi hamkkehajan geumaldeul
Jamkkanui,dalkomhan ppunirago
Geudaen wae amureochiannnyago nan ireoke apeunde

YOU’RE MY HEART HEART HEART HEART HEART BREAKER naega mwoljalmotaenneunji
YOU’RE MY HEART HEART HEART HEART HEART BREAKER NO WAY NO WAY

YOU’RE MY HEART HEART HEART BREAKER
YOU’RE MY HEART HEART HEART BREAKER BREAKER
H.E.A.R.T BREAKER (NO WAY)

I’M OUT

translations under the cut:

Translations:

A yo! finally! Is this what you’ve been waiting for?
brand new G.D! I’m all by my self, but it’s all good. you’re my heartbreaker
DJ and YG. Let me take this song here

I don’t fall behind, I’m still useful, I haven’t died yet
because of you, my body destroyed, my dream disappeared, my mind lost
for you i’d throw my entire body, to the place you’re at i’d run
but you said goodbye and goodbye

what was the reason why you didn’t like me? your confident expression, tell me everything, it makes me sad
but even if i say i like you and ask you for another chance, your back turned on me, i don’t like your cold look

no no
yo ma heart heart heart breaker i don’t know what i did wrong
yo ma heart heart heart breaker no way no way

though i said i’d leave you, i’m really going to leave, let’s see how you live by yourself

i’m sick of my love’s tragedy no way
everyday i ask the same thing, you say i changed, will you shut your hypocritical mouth?
say after knowing who i’m competing against. i’m now out of control, by myself continuously-
that moment that place goodbye and goodbye

what was the reason why you didn’t like me? your confident expression, tell me everything, it makes me sad
but even if i say i like you and ask you for another chance, your back turned on me, i hate your cold smile

no no
yo ma heart heart heart breaker i dno’t know what i did wrong
yo ma heart heart heart breaker
yo ma breaker no way no way

though i said i’d leave you, i’m really going to leave, let’s see how you live by yourself
i’m sick of my love’s tragedy no way
i’ll still still be there (despite your turned off phone)
i’ll still still be there (like the mailbox in front of my house)

i still love you (even if we’re strangers)

i will still be there

together forever, those words
are just temporarily sweet at that moment
why are you not affected, while i’m hurting so much

yo ma heart heart heart breaker i dno’t know what i did wrong
yo ma heart heart heart breaker

yo ma heart heart heart breaker breaker
h.e.a.r.t. breaker

credit:http://bakarang3r.wordpress.com/2009/08/19/02-heart-breaker-gd-solo-lyrics-romanjitranslation/

moody ~~~

sunday ?? i dont think this is sunday for me...
for my usual life , at sunday i usually go have my breakfast with my parents or family d..but now i feel like i lost the feeling .
bzs i am eating breakfast alone here... even its sunday.
as my roommate / housemate also wake up quite late..
had my lunch by 12 smtg... but for my housemate its breakfast ..><
erm...
then about the activities i don't wan to mention here lor..
till late evening , our old housemate called us to go play basketball.
well..
i was like ~~~wa ? so hot le...
but then also go le..bzs for me too long didn't go for exercise .
play till me so tired, now my leg was like ==" omg ? can't move...
we start play around 6 smtg..then finish play by 8 smtg...
after finish playing, 1st thing to do is go back to hostel to have a nice bath before going to have a nice dinner...
but 1 thing that piss me off very badly...
it happens before i go for basketball...
i receive a call form my dad.
and the content is about my sis.
her hand phone is stolen by a MOTHER FUCKER malay shit. (no offense to my friends or others)
man this sure piss me off le...
and it makes me feel like want to ask them 1 question...
so poor ? go ask government to gv u 1 la...
as u all are so used to ask from government.. !
PUI !
"he'll die from brain haemorrhage, or freakishly rare, degenrating, torturing, and most importantly incurable disease. then, not wasting the medic facilities and enable research to go on"
curse by my both sis.
"he get trapped at the rail of KTM then get smash in a slow and torture way"
my curse.

1 thing for sure la...
FUCK YOU and curse you badly. (to the particular person)

ps:no offense to any other religion.
if u found that ur not happy
with
what
i written
then FUCK OFF
from my
blog.
TQ.

a bad luck ? or fish day ?

well, as u can c the tittle
today i also don't know what happen..
when at my account tutorial class, i never thought that the she will discuss all the question in that fast speed.
then at there i need to rush for other question that i hadn't finish prepared .
and i had no idea why that time i will so careless
see wrongly what the question wanted .
and gave a wrong answer .
and it makes me feel a bit fish .
or can say it's very fish .

then after all that ,
i forget to print my account assignments and hand it up .
but that is lucky the due date is tml afternoon.
if not i will die for it.

and later in night.
i keep telling myself to remember to brig the pen-drive to go photostat the assignment.
and i did remember that .
but i forget to bring my student id card.
and it was notice when after finish eating and was going to enter the campus..
zzz
and i walk back to my hostel to get it .
after finish print and was heading back to hostel.
the sky is so bad .
it start to rain.
and the worst thing happen here.
when the time i was going up the stair with my housemate.
i only notice that i FORGET to get my pen-drive !!!
and WTF
i walk all the way back to the campus to get it..
and its still raining that time.
by doing this my shirt is wet and .... my mood just went down...
till no mood le..
feel like don't want to think of anything and go to sleep.
but i can't !! its too early now..and i scare that i will wake up in the mid night and can't go back to sleep.

ps:just maybe too tired.
or
its a bit stress
but things will go fine
all i need is
a sleep
music
care
love
attention
and food.
Better not to
hurt ourselves with
things that can't be explain.

Scary ~~~~

aiks, my intake got ppl get the influenza 1 .
and now 3 out of the 5 class has been quarantine .
but lucky for my group d class didn't get quarantine .
haha but also cham bzs need go for the lecture and tutorial...
but tml start i will be wearing the mask to college ..
i really damn scare man.. ~
no kidding if get and case get worsen will cause death ne ..

well, today i get to hear 1 song from GD .
his new solo will be out so soon..but i wonder where i can buy it...
hmm i hear the Gossip Man.
but now finding place to able me to dl it... ><
haha

tiring day !!

for today , even its a tiring day but it still worth it.
today did our last 4 hour moral community service .
wow.. .><
it was freaking tired man...
i now wonder will i get muscle pain by tml morning when i wake up ??
later got time finish the logbook then for this moral assignment 2 also finish le.. yes !
but i shouldn't yes so fast .
as for other subject assignment , i still not yet start .

today i only get the news , H1N1 in Malaysia is very serious.
cham .
i need to dig a hole the stay inside til the h1n1 is gone ...

laziness do kill me

well, i am those ppl that are very lazy . but now can't be a lazy person anymore.
as days passes.. everything came to a reality ,need to face it or to done the work.
or
face the music or even the effect .
1 thing for sure that i need to do my work and can't be a lazy ppl le.
other than that i really do hope i can improve my english ,but ppl i know at the college is all talking in chinese , aiks...
i really do need to improve my english . if not i sure will regret .
and now in the english writing , need very good english to produce a good essay .
assignment is the another thing that is killing me .
i now really understand why all college ppl say u sure no time bzs when assignment comes..
they will come in a same time and all due date is very near.
hmm , tml need to start to do my BMA(maths) assignments . if not it will be too late..
then next week or this sunday i need to start working in at my account second question assignments ...
aiks, weekends is coming again..
and i need to go and do the community service .
aiks. i am sure that it will be tiring day.
but i hope this time can finish it then full fill the 8 hours community service . then start to do the content and diary .
if not i think i will die very soon.
and other than these..
my mid term exam is drawing nearer and nearer..
hop ei can face it ..
but now i am still so weak at all my 5 subjects .
i sure need to do a lot of studying and understand all the things..
but for the maths i hope i can really do it..
as most of them say its easy ..but i found out its quite hard for me..
but i will never give up but will keep walking and finish it...

1 thing that makes me not very happy is my account teacher .
she is like picking on our group ..><
or no i dont know la...
bzs as we ask things , she will say 1 thing ' you should find it out yourself' man.. wtf hor..
after can't find the things we need then only we ask ma...
u also keep say that sentence to us...
aiks... but i really do that i can score well for my acc exam ...
hwaiting to all my group-mates !

death day...

well, today is my 1st day that are going to gv a presentation ...
aiks..its went sux when i was giving the presentation..
feel so bad for that ne..
aiks... i really do hope that i will do better at other presentation....
but still.. feel so sad ..
all assignments coming to me and my friends none stop ne...
but now at least done 1 le lor... but many more to go...
acc , econs, english , moral , bma .. wa aiks..all at least 1 assignments ne...

hope that today presentation also can score well ne. T.T if not cry for it le lor...

worrying and scarery day for me

so worry , as tml will be my 1st time to present in front ..but also with my group member la...
tml need to present d is moral 1st assignment..
so worry ne... as every time i go through the slide.. i feel like worry as , it seems a bit unorganized and a bit less points .
but need to pray hard that its ok lor..if not tml also dont know how to die...
aiks..

for yesterday , is my mom birthday .. but i cant celebrate with her , as i didn't go back Ipoh and my dad also at KL .. so this year my mom need to celebrate by her own self ..aiks..feel a bit sad and bad for that...
just wish my mom happy birthday and hope that u will happy always but most important is that she will stay healthy forever ..

the haze at here is getting worse and worse ... as i can c many of my friend that study at KL also complaining about this haze le.. and somehow with this bad condition of weather , ppl still do open burning...
sometimes i just ask myself , is burning things so fun???

other than that , the government s doing ntg at this ...
nor also the H1N1 case..
what the government care is only about political problem..
how to eat money .. thats all ...
about serious problem , H1N1 and the haze problem , they just don't care ....
but what to do ??????
but no offense to anyone .. bzs this is the fact .. accept it or deny it ? the answer is in ur head..

lastly , just pray hard for the presentation by tml ... hope everything will go fine...
hwaiting group !!!!!

Bang ~~ ?

lolz..
erm these few days also lazy to write .. or can say that i had ntg to write about ..
but recently i found out something ...
i saw the newspaper by 31 th July
that TVXQ is going to disband ...
aiks
what a shocking news..
i think this news quite shock all of their fans.
but about more of their news , i had no idea..

aiks...
i getting more worry le...
so many butterfly at my stomach ne ...
assignments... work...
aiks... more scare also assignments..
so many assignments to scare of ne..
Moral ..(group assignments ) got 2..
Account 1 individual assignments.
Econs assignments coming soon
BMA coming soon
ESC 1 grop assignments EWE ... aiks ...

AHHHHHH !!
i wan to be free le.. i damn hate to be a busy life...
y the shit from the start i choose this road !
but now what to do ? who to blame ? blame myself la...
and these few day don't know y my stomach not feeling well again..
this morning , can say whole morning also stomach ache ..
and now night time feel likes got gastric.. T.T
what is happening to me ?
i very sad ne...
is it bzs of these negative thought giving myself negative pressure ?
just feel very complicated or to be say that i am really lost in no where ...
no direction or anything....
or is it that i just lack of love or caring ?

why always people say that i am happy ..
but actually
i am sad always
but u can't c it in my heart ...
my soul is actually very down...
the smile on the face somehow doesn't means that i smile then i am happy or feeling ok..

ps:i really getting to hate myself
bzs
i can't do anything
right or well
can't gv what other
expected .
only give disappointment.

aiks...
erm for this afternoon thought of going out to yam cha d..but also fail le. nvm im sure there is always chance...
after knowing the plan has been cancel.
i thought of going to do my tutorial question...
but..zzz
end up gong to sleep...
sleep till 6 smtg only wake up...
aiks...wat also not yet do ..but so damn tired...
and today feeling was like complicated
maybe its bzs of the weather ..? about family ?
not sure ne... just complicated ...

well i less mention smtg at my previous post by this noon ...
that is i bought YG magazine at KL .
and inside it got ...
poster ...
well. wat poster ?
Big Bang Vs SS501 ...lolz
but i like Big Bang de ..as i am a fan also ma.. lolz..
erm the photo below is taken with my cell phone camera..so the pixel its like.. shit !
haha
1st its the Big Bang d and the second 1 is SS501 d...
Big Bang VIP'sSS501

hehe

compacted time

I thought that this week won't be going back to my home town Ipoh ...
but end up also going back...
bzs of some issue...
its like why everything also just come together at the same time ne?
assignments...
homeworks...
tutorial questions....
family ....

aiks.. y all these doesn't come when i was free ?!?!
well.. but what to do now ?
face it lor..

i left My Place and walk to the carefour KTM to go my sis there ..
erm its cost me around 30 minutes to get to my sis there...
after get to my sis there. sit for awaile and waited till 7:40p.m then go to the KTM to go Central .
aiks...
when reach central.. we like got 1 hour + more before going into the platform ...
then for me i actually not yet have my dinner...
so i go to eat at KFC..and it cost me for RM 10 for my dinner.. sob...
but when me and my sis was waiting to get in to the platform . i only remember that simon also going back today ne..
and i was like think will we be going back by the same train...
then i smsed him...
wow...
guess what..
we are on the same train.. lolz
then inside the train .. we like chat for 3 hours ..lolz?
from central to Ipoh ..lolz..chat none stop....
bzs a lot to catch up ...><
and we reach Ipoh by 12:40 in the morning .. lolz...

erm for today ...
in the afternoon i thought of doing the moral assignments...
but
WTF !
guess what happen ?
the format of the file is microsoft word version 2007 ..
and
for mine
is
microsoft word version 2003 ...
and end up cant open the file..
FUCK lor !!!!!!
but lucky that our group is not going to present on the next week...

but its like if i don't start to finish this assignments .. it will end up more assignments coming to me...

later going to do my tutorial question le...
aiks..Ipoh d weather more bad than at KL .. wish that tonight will rain ne..