i always told my friend to be more confident in them selves

but the fact is that i don't even have any confident in myself

there is always people who stand out and say out what their thought and their opinion,

but i rather silent up and stay there to just listen on what other say about

this is mainly because i think that i don't have the enough knowledge to actually said out what i thought, while this term 1

there is a course named MOB, management and organization behavior,

there is 4 stage of knowing,

one of the knowing is 'independent knowing' where it is the third stage.

i don't think so i can stand up and share my opinion though knowledge is uncertain,

it's because that i scare of what other think about me.

other than that, in the forth stage that is the 'contextual knowing'

it stated that knowledge is contextual as in we need evidence in which we had stated.

while i can't actually recall things such as who said it and where did i found it...

so it's really quite hard to speak out and also i am not sure of the full text of it due to my bad memory....

... ...

lolx for the blabling~

To choose what food to consume,

it's quite difficult due to wide range of food.

To choose what colour,

is complicated as different colour bring different meaning.

To choose what to study,

it's quite sad, as not everyone able to choose what they wanted to study.

To choose the another half in our life,

it's unique to be as in faith to able 2 to meet.

To choose the path to walk on that doesn't had a U-Turn,

it's the most difficult task to be done by everyone.

as you can see,

not most of us able to choose the course they wanted to enrol in,

as it may seems to be a sad thing.

but the truth for me,

it's more sad that had to choose myself,

without proper guidance and different opinion of other's

it just make me more complicated and more confuse

am i really on the right track?

as in, the right track for my own path or the right track for what other indirected wanted path?

Why on earth that money exist?

does anyone had the same question?

money seems to be more important to be compare in love, feelings, family, relationship, friends !

money is like devil for me,

as in, it's dominating over us.

but there still a rule in my mind,

money can buy and allow us to do most of the things but not true love.

The first sight on you,

it's like the everything had stopped,

looking at you it's like there is no tomorrow,

your smile is like honey

but not as sweet as honey,

all the feeling is so right,

looking at you but not knowing you

is the mistakes that I kept repeating;

even after knowing you

but not to had you in hand,

it's more wicked sad.

It's like the shadow that everyone process,

only able to feel and saw it,

but not able to held it or talk to it,

when there isn't any light,

the shadow will not be there,

not to say it's gone but its invisible to be seen.

Messy~

Haiz, it's been more than a week

still coughing and the worsen part is that i got block nose...

haiz~

by last saturday its was my 1st time being a Tester Promoter...

quite interesting and learnt something

but

it was quite stress out kinda like

need to keep on telling the same thing to customer ;

time passes slowly, that slower than i thought it would be ;

need write report ;

keep the booth and things, that this is actually i hate the most ;

bad management of the outlet? O_O because of the pricing

other than that...

i think its been more than a month till now,

my freaking laptop isn't back yet

and i bet this time when its back,

it should, or should be say must be fix till good condition

while not like last time, that i actually reject to receive it due to the quality of the fixing.

for me to be so eager to get back my laptop and not using this mini laptop

isn't because of the games...

but is that by using my own laptop i can actually enjoy bigger screen O_O

that won't stress out my eyes badly...

meanwhile,

i have been using the previous time much on thinking about my past

and think about the future

about bad memories and good memories...

1 that i don't really forget though

that is the 18th birthday that i had alone at KL, the day that my business foundation starts

at first i think it was quite sad that the 1st time i pass my birthday alone.

but on the very same day, actually i am happy that i got a very great present indeed

that from my parents, that is to able me to continue to study...

the happy moment was those that i pass my times happy sad angry unpleasant moment with my friends, not only secondary buddies and friends and college friends but also with my family and me myself.

i do believe that appreciate every moment in our life is very important.

time passes, thoughts grow

imagination reduce, reality grow stronger

thoughts

My Opinion

trust ~>

betrayal ~>

hatred ~>

cold war ~>

feeling ~>

understandability ~>

re-trust ~>

love

random

when there is dream, you got hope; when hope is there, you got faith; when there is faith, there are believes; believes able you to work hard for it; as a result of hard work, achievement is realised; when there is achievement, it shows that you had done it by starting with a dream.