do skip this post, if u had no interest in about my personal. tq.

Is good to see how friends taking a step forward ahead changing and walking toward brighter path,

how i wish i could step forward even 1 single little step...

but no matter how hard i try, i still fail...

because of something happen way back before when i was in primary school days,

i lost myself by that day by wearing another mask in daily life

no meeting or talk to much people around me

or even i talk but many things are locked...

in such a way that i don't really share any secrets to anyone,

i meant everyone... but all lock behind the history of memories.

till secondary school, where i found a group of friends that i can approach with,

but somehow there isn't the trust in between that i can't feel it.

still, i do believe we are still buddies but not as simple as friends...

though now u guys were all in Ipoh and Kampar while i am the only 1 that is at KL.

as now i do feel the gap in between us, as less communicate.

as i am saying that i wore a mask at primary school to hide my main personality,

but i kept on wearing on mask on above...

that till now, that i can't even know actually whats my true personality

i felt so random...

i can push or to give positive advice to friend around me,

but why is it that i am the one that had all those negative thought roaming in my mind, every sec in my life... i tried to think so positively and speak so positively but somehow the confidence is not there.

i just had no idea now...

had no how to proceed for now until i really do fight won against the 'object' that is seal so deeply that i can't even remember of how it happen and how it ended.

meanwhile, i do feel like there is a gap between me and people around me.

i do hope to know about something,

that is about, is it hard to approach to me??

it can be talk to me, saying hi... or what so ever that it is related to it.... do drop a comment or send me a e-mail or tell in msn. if u are my friend that is reading about this.

found this by being shared by some

it's actually very awesome...

do spare less than 7 min

on listening to this.

awesome right??? =)

0:08 SHINee – Lucifer 0:26 SHINee – Ring Ding Dong0:39 Super Junior – Bonamana 0:53 U-Kiss – Man Man Ha Ni 1:06 T-ara – I Go Crazy Because Of You1:21 BEAST – Shock 1:35 Big Bang – Haru Haru 1:47FT Island – I Hope 2:16 Wonder Girls – 2 Different Tears 2:42 BEAST – Mystery 2:55 4Minute – HUH 3:07T-ara – Bo Peep Bo Peep 3:18 KISS – Because I’m A Girl 3:51 2AM – I Will Never Let You Go Even If I Die4:20 DBSK – I Believe 4:52 SNSD – Gee

something came into me when i'm bathing,

but when i wanted to blog it out here,

i forgotten about what i wanted to blog about,

and i think i going to pause here and think... think... think back...

finally i'm able to think back of what i wanted to blog about.

it's about my university. x)

as i had mention, that i just started my degree not long ago while its only 3 weeks now...

but so far, i feel the stress from the study load and course work,

though i am not about to talk about all those,

is that i feel like i'm not in a lecture hall anymore when i enter the degree compare to my foundation,

what i see is that all those branded stuff that student had in their body...

for instance, hand bag... some brands that i started to feel bored to looking at,

such as Longchamp, Burberry, Chanel, LV and some more others.

it's seems like that it's so must to own them even their still students.

i'm not jealous or what, is that i am curious to know why only.. =)

for me, i purely just think that their family background are rich, thats all..

though i think this is very common in overseas...

i always told my friend to be more confident in them selves

but the fact is that i don't even have any confident in myself

there is always people who stand out and say out what their thought and their opinion,

but i rather silent up and stay there to just listen on what other say about

this is mainly because i think that i don't have the enough knowledge to actually said out what i thought, while this term 1

there is a course named MOB, management and organization behavior,

there is 4 stage of knowing,

one of the knowing is 'independent knowing' where it is the third stage.

i don't think so i can stand up and share my opinion though knowledge is uncertain,

it's because that i scare of what other think about me.

other than that, in the forth stage that is the 'contextual knowing'

it stated that knowledge is contextual as in we need evidence in which we had stated.

while i can't actually recall things such as who said it and where did i found it...

so it's really quite hard to speak out and also i am not sure of the full text of it due to my bad memory....

... ...

lolx for the blabling~

team building

attend for the

team building event for UWE student,

though actually not all attend,

while some just left after attendance or left middle of it.

starting was like feel like skipping it too,

but after playing, i think it's quite unexpected to be fun and cool.

that work with people that i don't really know, but only 1 people that i know since we study foundation together and same class, where other's just meet by that moment.

it's quite fun actually to run up and downs, left and right... though is tiring.

but i had not had such a none stop run here and there for a while...

the event started around 10:15am, and for my group we finished it around 4pm

which complete the whole game set in number 5 in term of speed. while had no idea about the score yet.

as i left to catch the bus and did not stay back to listen to whose the winner and stuff...

overall, it's not that bad as i thought.

mean while, starts from tomorrow i got to start doing my tutorials and also assessments...

do hope i do able to cope with it.

i think this is

happening to me

just started my

degree life for around 2 weeks time?

and by looking at the

subject's handbook,

there are so many of individual assignments

queuing up.

imagine 6 subject

but i do know that i can't compare it with

working people or people studying for PHD

hope i just manage to cope with it

and do my best to handle all.

while i also do hope that the internet

i using can be slightly

better?

as in for me to download

journal's??

pls~~ T__T

Words

can be a seed

that plant within

mentally.

Good and supportive word will

push our mentally strength

upwards.

Negative words will

drag our mentally strength

downwards.

All i need

is just a slightly

push from behind

so i can really stand on

on my decision

that step into this course.

Finally can't bear it

went to visit the doctor by yesterday

about my nose...

what he told me is that,

"your nose had a very serious sinus"

and he gave me 3 types of medicine

but got to like eat finish it and go back for a second visit by november.

Aiks... hope it really to recover soon... T__T

while,

for my course,

i think i got my self into group 3

i think...

at least there isn't 8am class...

but, 2 days classes till 6pm

wondering who will i meet on monday tutorial class...

other than that,

i'm quite worried about

why am i not receiving the e-mail from UWE yet,

while others got theirs. hope i do receive it asap...

~o~

got to off soon and pack my stuff and hurried for 1:45 pm KTM back to KL.

got this video clip

shared by my best friend

Raymond Lee

the song below is truly

meaningful,

if u know cantonese

will be best to listen to it.

spare just that 4 min...

and you understand what i said.

swimming

For quite a time

that i had no swim

and

today

went swimming with my sis

totally crappy...

as only 10 laps,

i lost my breath and no more energy

==||

haiz...

Month of

October,

i had no good feelings about this month

as

the 1st day of October,

got some misunderstand

within me and the apartment owner,

causing me

feel like moving out

and find a better 1.

as today,

when i woke up,

i don't feel great,

my heads are heavy...

head ache from morning till now,

it's like those blood vein

going to burst any time.

hope that

tomorrow orientation

will be a better day.

cross finger that everything

just goes smoothly for these time.

my orientation

is gona start by tomorrow

kinda nervous

hope everything works out nicely

back to my rented house,

no streamyx =/

means line damn slow with p1

so unstable compare to the

time before i end my foundation.

hope it goes better soon...

it's

2353

when i typing this post.

September going to end just less than 7 min...

while October going to start less than 6 min...

where i got less than 3 days till i start my orientation

got kinda nervous

though excited about whats next.

i wish that time would be long for now...

but

the same time that i wish that time would be shorter...

got confuse of my life

mess up the way of

choosing which is

right

or

wrong.

B2st

Soom MV

x) just noticed that it's up on youtube by yesterday...

music's in my mind

huu~

addicted to few song this

few days...

1st 1 is the outdated 1,

but new to me.. x)

k-on - Don't Say You Are Lazy

&

B2st - Soom

wake me up ~

it's almost the end

of

September

going to start my course

by Oct 4

someone

sure need to

wake me up

for me to focus in my studies

SE7EN - I'M GOING CRAZY

nice MV,

i think it cont on the previous MV of Lalala... i think so la...

After the few months of

using the

Net Book

and

now

back to the way

it should be...

i feel the speed ~

still exploring...

k-on

Been busy watching this anime

since last day,

K-On

finish watching the 1st season

and almost to an end

to season 2

this animation

is pure funny

x)

i LMAO for real when watching it

but my personal rating

that the 1st season is better,

but not able to conclude yet

as not yet finish season 2.

gona finish it by tml if can.

kinda makes me wonder

should i pick up guitar or bass

when i got the chance?

Rainy day's

average a day

evening or night,

sure will rain...

gah~

it's gona rain pretty soon

here...