Examination period

Currently I'm sitting for my Degree first year final exam,
quite stress for me to handle, even it's the first year.
Finish 4 out of 6 subjects,
Finished paper:
-Business Information System Management (BISM), didn't really write very well for this paper though knowing what and how should i answer it, but somehow just didn't write that good.
-Management & Organization Behaviour (MOB), prepared for it, but i know what I wrote was consider short comparing to others, which i saw some can write over 12 pages. For this paper, I just hope that what i wrote is not out of the topic.
-Business Statistics & Decision Making (BSDM), didn't practice much on it or redo pass year questions, overall, still i think i did a great job in the exam as I'm not very good in maths subject. While hoping to know my coursework marks to be released and hope the marks would be okay... =)
-Introduction to Financial Accounting (IFA), just sat for the paper by yesterday, questions weren't too hard to be tackle, but sadly i did not put effort in reading the concept, which makes me feel that i did badly for the theory question (question1). Meanwhile for calculation, manage to get correct for 2 out of 3 questions, the 1 that i didn't manage to balance was single entry and i can't find the error i made to correct it. If i would get a A for this subject, i think it would be miracle? haha, at least a B+/- would be happy for me.

2 more papers coming up,
Introduction to Management Accounting (IMA), had no start prepare for it, though the paper is on next week wednesday but a lot to study and practice on, hopefully my slackness or laziness won't the issue that make me to procrastination on my studies.. keke...
Economics for Business and Accounting (EBA), the fact is that i had prepare for this subject neither, but i think it would be a bit fast to finish study on this subject perhaps, hopefully~

For the first time,
that i sat for exam in sick condition, where the first day (Monday) on my BISM paper, I've been making 'dumpling' even before entering the examination hall and all the way (2 hours) in the exam hall, which i wanted to say sorry to those around my area if i had disturb u all. the next thing i know when i reach home was having fever. lucky that got better before the second paper on Friday.

2 more papers! 18th and 19th, while the next thing is 4 months holiday !! can't really wait for that and wonder how should i spend the 4 months time.
another thing is that, for my motivation, i think i should buy myself a item if i got at least A or B for all my subject. While the item i wanted or wish to own are a wide angle lens 18mm f2.8, a new watch and a new handphone which i wonder on getting myself the Sony Ericsson Xperia Arc or wait for Iphone 5? hmm... hmm...

anyway, hwaiting to me and friends that are sitting for their respective examinations !!
let's do our best... =)

18.1.11

today noon weather~

so sunny and hot...

consider bad start of Jan 2011??

crap my exam's early Jan

& got leg sprain after the last paper of exam.

maybe i'm over worried about every single thing around me,

i should take it easy and not to stress myself too over...

i never wanted negative things to happen...

it's only Jan of 2011.. 11 months more to go for this year.

6/1/11

back to last thursday,

which is 6th Jan,

join my family in the evening after my morning exam,

main aim is to go to MAS Cargo to collect my sis parcels

& also drop off my sis to LCCT to catch a flight to SG.

took this while heading to MAS Cargo.

this was the first time for me and my family to go MAS Cargo to collect parcel by ourself.

to summaries things up,

MAS Cargo building and procedure step department allocated in such a stupid way.

which u need to run from north to south, then south back to north to get only 1 steps done?!

It sux from the beginning which is to get passes to enter the cargo area which need to pass a custom check point.

while the total process is around 7 steps.

But it's consider fast to done all those procedure due to friendly people... =)

done everything from the beginning till the end cost around 2 hours, while normally they said it will cost 3 hours+

Another thing is that they sure know how to earn money, to complete the whole steps, got to pay about an amount of RM100+/- for those forms, custom forms & stuffs...

We started things from around 6:45pm +/- and done everything by 8:45pm|+/- and rush to the next door LCCT to drop off my sis.

i'm just to lazy to say everything out... due to my laziness... = O

summarized of my 2010 life

For this year 2010,

every things goes normally,

beginning of 2010, moved to new house which is so comfortable and warm for a living.

i must thanks my dad and mom on how they plan & decide for this house,

and not least is that i love the texture and the wall of the house, which the idea came from my dad and it came up to be so nicely done! sadly that i had not went back to my home-town for weeks or months?? and had not taken clear picture of it to share it.

By June,

i had a shift from my hostel to rent a unit at Casa Tiara,

it was quite rush to do the decision and from what i see now is that i'm not very cool with this owner, due to several issue that i do not wish to state at here.

but overall that this unit is quite comfortable to live in though the sad part is that there is no nice view from my unit which is facing other block of building!

Finish my business foundation course by early July,

quite disappointed to look back as in how i did badly for all those exam's

that i did not even put effort in it, while i know i can do better than that.

But it's already a past.

Had another long rest for 3 months after foundation end before my degree starts.

in between those unmentioned months, i had not done anything special or cool other than doing a part time job during the 3 month.

Miss .3 friends, though most of them went to different courses.

meanwhile, before i end my foundation final exam.

i bought myself a high premium Nike sneakers. ♥ it

October, the month of roller coaster ride for me,

as i will be starting my degree.

i would like to gratefully thanks my dad to give me a chance to continue my studies.

Before joining the UWE - Accounting and Finance course,

had my very first personal laptop, Compaq Presario CQ42.

one thing that i not very happy with this laptop is that speaker volume is so soft.

back to what happens on my Year 1, term 1

I skipped all the orientation program at first week except lecture.

got to know which group i joined by end of 1st week,

which i find it quite interesting, i'm in tutorial group 3 again. =D

around 9(include me) out of 31 people is from foundation. no idea that it is a good thing or bad thing.

there were less or no interaction between us from the start,

but after 2 months time??? only after such a long time, we only started to make noises...

around this month, December.

manage to bought myself some stuffs, 1st is a skinny fit jeans from UniQlo,

second, a sling bag of JanSport.

and the lovely DSLR. heart it.

bought it at 24th December.

erm, about the photo on 60D, it's actually taken by reflection of mirror...

so i think it explains on why every thing is at the other way round....

i had not fully used it or know every single function,

might use it more when i back to my house after my Jan assessment.

Well, as for me

took this in the morning, i know i look like a noob.

*update

just remember about this,

the best water bill i never received before for staying at a apartment,

the water bill for this month is RM2334.72 =X impressive right??

more than 2 weeks time, no answer from the management office. =/

hope things settle nicely...

lastly, wish you all Happy New Year

and enjoy the count down party by tonight.

ps: picture of of focus and blur.

习惯了一个人

但还是不习惯寂寞

喜欢一个人生活

但不喜欢寂寞

Felt so bad,

but not able to wake up from it,

the laziness habit from long ago,

had eaten up every single soul,

i wanted to do well in my studies,

study hard,

not to let myself down and also my parents,

someone... someone... just pull me out of the laziness,

motivate me to study,

not because to score well,

but to gain knowledge...

5 more days,

2010 will be history,

2011 will be the the new issue,

around 7 days,

my mid assessment start,

but me

had not done anything,

assignments

had not done anything,

the stress and pressure is there,

but it's not motivating me to do...

it's so true that,

money can buy clock,

but not time...

time fade away,

each and every second...

life duration shorten by every second...

reconsideration

regarding the previous post, about getting a dslr 1st and next is the bb.

but i think after getting more info on the dslr, and i was not recommend on buying the D5000.

while should get a D90, after the thought and info given, and going for comparison & think about it.

i think i am going to get D90 rather than D5000 now, but now is that i need to wait till i got my loan only i can get it.

so now, i am planning to get the bb 1st...

but got to discuss with my dad again about that...

huhu... money sure is the devil, everything need money...

what if i am really a rich kid and never think of the money problem...how good

but too bad that i am not... im a normal person and a average family... =) but i do satisfy on it...

been a while since i wrote...

a week ago today, i was sick... but some how now still got the after effect...

after this week, there will be a 1 week term break for my course.

where i will head back to Ipoh again... x) huhu ~

can't wait till this week end...

this saturday gona head down to time square and sungei wang,

to buy things that i wanted for some times, that is to hunt a skinny jeans, sling bag, a belt and also TaeYang solar album international version... huhu... hope around 300 can get all these...cross finger... =X

while i got this dilemma to choose which to buy 1st in between Blackberry bold 9700 and DSLR D5000 till now... =/

but kinda sort things out... after talking to my dad...

going for dslr 1st, then only for the phone...

but my dad urge me to get iphone instead of blackberry...

hmm... but maybe i will stick to the plan to get a bb soon... =)

waiting money =X aiks...

plan the whole path though not yet got the money... x)

still hope things goes well...

i set boundaries in most of the people around me,

for strangers, i only talk unless u talk to me or ask me question.

hi - bye friend, nothing much but smile? wave?

friends, i never share details with u all... the topic and content that i choose to talk is depends on which type of person you are...

buddies, i share most of my story with, but still i never shared lock memories and secret with...

family, i never talk about my story with my family...

the point i saying this is because, the trust between me and people around me.

the trust, that this trust word never appear in my mind dictionary.

once it's hurt, the trust is destroy... that is so hard to build back.

i set boundaries not meant to hurt people, but if i do... i'm so sorry about it.

i think only my buddies and family do know 1 thing that i mostly hate the most,

is that people never stop disturbing people in wrong time, keep repeating what the content of conversation.

last day of october

To wrap up everything for this month,

i think that this month is full of ups and downs in overall.

things that happen in this month,

got my self a new laptop Compaq Presario CQ42, to replace the previous 1 that got nasty... =/

enroll myself into Taylor's UWE - Accounting and Finance, overall what i see is that the total of girls > boys... but strangely that my group/class that actually has the most boys and less girls...whereas other group/class are like even or girls>boys ?

adapting to the new group, though got quite few that i had already know from foundation.

other than that, i'm stressed out for no specific reason or unidentified reasons.

in this first year which consist of Term 1 + Term 2 and 6 subjects, which is Intro to finance accounting, intro to management accounting, business statistic & decision making, business information system management, economics for business & accounting, and management & organization behavior.

puff ~ feel like gona stressed out in this 1st year and half dead by sec year and died by third year, and when into the world = become undead.

got a bit not happy with my land lord, which typically she has this 大小姐脾气

and she keeps on sms to me on every month end to remind or should say rush me to bank in the rental, but the point is the rental will be banked in on every last day of the month.. ok ?? why the XXXX that she need to keep on disturbing me... gosh ! almost every month end mood got messed up by her...

got my self applied for PTPTN loan, now need to get a whole sack of document that need to be sign and prepared. so that can hand in by the time when the officer go to the campus.. ?! cross hand, hope every things go smoothly~

messed up my system, which now i can't actually differentiate wants and need.

but for my aim, i'm sure that i going to go for DSLR for the 1st and next is to get myself a blackberry

=)

last but not least, yesterday went to Sunway Giza Tao for dinner as to celebrate Ching Huei birthday. the not good part is that i got over hungry which cause me had not very good appetite to consume tons of food, which actually make that day sad for me. but still i'm still happy to get into the chit chats when eating and all the celebration...

and also wish her all the best for taking SPM in november...

less than 2 hours, got to welcome november and put the month of october into the back of my memories where all secrets and the detailed stuff be buried into the locked memories.

hope that november will be a fresh month and a waits challenges a head.

as if i am smiling towards you

because you can't see i'm crying

as tears aren't rolling down

as tears dried up

as there isn't watery eyes are shown;

as there is a mask to cover up the sad face with a smiling mask

you would never know that i am sad beneath the mask

as there is even a crack in the heart

but you can't see it because the heart is inside me

as you are not able to see through and never notice about it.

don't think that you knew me well,

as i myself never knew myself

because of all those layer of mask that are worn one above another

till i can't trace back the one, the original me long time ago.

just checked my gmail,

and found out that my application is approved but still need to prepare

a lump sum of document to hand in to the officer.

i feel kinda stun and confused now.

30k for 3 years course (6 semester) each semester 4.5k

but i need to return all the money in a length of 15 years.

its kinda long...

but what stuns me the most is that it's like everything

came into me in the same time frame...

make me feel tension...

i start to feel such a way even doing such a small thing for adults i will also feel so stressed out.

what i scare is that i didn't handle all these things with care.

which i scare that will do stupid mistake... =(

i felt a bit useless even doing such little task such as preparing the ptptn loan document and my studies only... while in future how the hell am i gona handle the work loads ??!!

been listening to music with head set to actually release myself

but i think things cant work out quite well....

as most of the song is sad songs causing me to be more 'emo'

feel like shouting at something till i blank out my mind and clear up what i should do...

Am i actually so hard to approach?

hard to communicate?

I actually feels that

i am invisible among peoples

where no one actually notice me,

not to even say saw me.

I'm just like a invisible man.

미안 해요

Should i be

just seat there

and

not to care about anything

not to do anything

not to talk to anyone

not to answer anything

not to bother about any things

people talk in such a way that

actually will hurt people

but seems to take it as a joke.

if i promise to

keep as secret

means its secret

lock down till bottom of my mind.

trust me

or not to trust me

beyond you.

reflection on my secondary school,

SMJK Sam Tet @ Ipoh.

been studying at this school of mine for 5 years from form 1 till form 5

where i graduate on the year 2008. now it's 2010.

it's been 2 years.

when i think back about my secondary school life,

it was so fresh that i still remember how i pass every day on my schooling days,

meet up with friends and buddies which is different class.

from the 5 years in the school, what i think the most happening period is the time on 2008,

which is the year when i am studying form 5.

first of all from me, is that me and my friends are going to sit for the SPM

and decide where to study in future.

other than that not to miss out what our principle did to upgrade our school.

to think back that i 'm not enough mature on how things goes in the real world but now i think i do need to say how grateful is our principle in doing so much things in a short period of 1 YEAR !

few things such as, being the first secondary school that start using card system to take attendance in peninsular Malaysia? how cool, when think back... =)

second is that installing air-conditioner to our hall, which had no air-conditioner last time.

third is to had a major project on expanding the library and teachers office.

forth, by making our 2 basketball court to be covered =)

from second to forth listed, all the money came from students, students parent, public and private sector. but also no from GOVERNMENT ! how sad to actually reminds me back how sux the government is.

fifth, is to got sponsor from MCA and also some sponsor from others to build a bridge for us to walk across to the other side of it as the road is so freaking busy. about this i felt a shame of government that not doing such a tiny thing ?? to actually ensure the student safety...? but we all do know the reasons on why they didn't. curious?

i think thats all i can think and can write about in here.

while i got to rush for my stuff to do for my classes.

ps: i had no intention of flaming government or any sector, if u are not happy with it u can not to read about this blog tq.

reasons on

Typically there is few reason that i think why i'm still single,

first reason is that i'm not as handsome as most of those people out there... =X

second is that i'm not good in talking or flirting...

third, not as smart of most of them.... 0,..,0

forth, not as wealthy as others...

fifth, i don't talk with unknown people???

sixth, due to the background of my family or how i was thought??

seventh, doesn't have the confidence in own self to speak out.

eight, due to my stingy personality? =7

ninth, because i'm a nerd... ? O_O

tenth, is it because i'm hard to approach ?!?!

hmm, basically that what i thought for my self...

or most probably there is more reasons behind... =[

What a interesting and tired day in Uni,

though class started by 10am, but it ended at 6pm.

=3

what is interesting about today was

economics tutorial, that just conducted 1st time after 3 weeks... O___O

the very last group that is catching up from behind, =(

but got to meet up this cool tutor

though 1st impression on him was a like not very well, as in meet him the 1st time by a mistake that he got into the wrong class that is into my class while not his tutorial,

while now, judging from what i heard him said and his experience,

i think i will be enjoying the tutorial for econs for this whole term 1 and term 2,

one thing that isn't cool about him is that, he kept on repeating same thing as to give strong perspective on the basic of econs and also key words to be used in writing essay or answer out.

second was about got to register a 'wong kok' member card that last for 5 years for FOC... x) kinda cool for this....i know, most probably most of u guys got it, but i just got it..so i consider it as cool for me.. =)

another thing was about a tall girl, that is a korean girl,

her height was like almost the height of mine...

too bad that i don't know who she...

meanwhile, today i only notice the 3 Nike shoes that i own had the same swoosh pattern as in the swoosh goes all the way till the back of the shoes and connected... x)

if ur not sure about what i said, most probably going to upload a photo of it if i got the time and also a camera, that sadly is that i don't own a camera... =((

wooosh ~

lousy blog i had

as in

it seems like i am

writing a

dairy here...

do skip this post, if u had no interest in about my personal. tq.

Is good to see how friends taking a step forward ahead changing and walking toward brighter path,

how i wish i could step forward even 1 single little step...

but no matter how hard i try, i still fail...

because of something happen way back before when i was in primary school days,

i lost myself by that day by wearing another mask in daily life

no meeting or talk to much people around me

or even i talk but many things are locked...

in such a way that i don't really share any secrets to anyone,

i meant everyone... but all lock behind the history of memories.

till secondary school, where i found a group of friends that i can approach with,

but somehow there isn't the trust in between that i can't feel it.

still, i do believe we are still buddies but not as simple as friends...

though now u guys were all in Ipoh and Kampar while i am the only 1 that is at KL.

as now i do feel the gap in between us, as less communicate.

as i am saying that i wore a mask at primary school to hide my main personality,

but i kept on wearing on mask on above...

that till now, that i can't even know actually whats my true personality

i felt so random...

i can push or to give positive advice to friend around me,

but why is it that i am the one that had all those negative thought roaming in my mind, every sec in my life... i tried to think so positively and speak so positively but somehow the confidence is not there.

i just had no idea now...

had no how to proceed for now until i really do fight won against the 'object' that is seal so deeply that i can't even remember of how it happen and how it ended.

meanwhile, i do feel like there is a gap between me and people around me.

i do hope to know about something,

that is about, is it hard to approach to me??

it can be talk to me, saying hi... or what so ever that it is related to it.... do drop a comment or send me a e-mail or tell in msn. if u are my friend that is reading about this.

wake me up ~

it's almost the end

of

September

going to start my course

by Oct 4

someone

sure need to

wake me up

for me to focus in my studies

After the few months of

using the

Net Book

and

now

back to the way

it should be...

i feel the speed ~

still exploring...

k-on

Been busy watching this anime

since last day,

K-On

finish watching the 1st season

and almost to an end

to season 2

this animation

is pure funny

x)

i LMAO for real when watching it

but my personal rating

that the 1st season is better,

but not able to conclude yet

as not yet finish season 2.

gona finish it by tml if can.

kinda makes me wonder

should i pick up guitar or bass

when i got the chance?