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won't be updating till things are settle

strange~

its been strange lately as i have been using this mini laptop for about 3 weeks + nearly 1 month. this mini laptop only allow me to MS, surf website, listen song and watch anime.
but no DOTA...
here is the strange part, where i can alive without dota for more than 3 weeks...
the life without dota isn't that bad for me also...
only that i am able to past time more fast while playing dota, meanwhile the same time i can forget about all those unhappy or stress i get...
but now without playing dota, my time past slowly, that it actually made me think of a lot of things that happened lately...
studies? friends? family? financial?
the demand of things from myself is starting to overlapping till i can't manage to surplus it...
and in this condition, that make me very sad by having nothing for what i wanted...
it's so hard to bear the temptation...

yesterday, the 1st time where i actually feel the stress and pressure on handing in 3 assignments in the same time, where it consist of 1 journal and 2 video presentation.
its been a very busy week, but now its all over till only one more oral group presentation had not done only.
as for my mid term exam for this sem, seems to be more worst than the previous sem.
while this thought came to me, that will my English fail??
is it possible? but i will make it impossible...
as i actually never feel so bad for my english paper so far...
i never done crap result for my english till i now start to enter college...
or is it the standard of the primary and secondary english from government syllabus was that SHIT ?!
but its better for me to be more focus in my grammar and language in my essay now or its really doom for me.
for BCP, i never thought of having so much careless mistake...that shouldn't be happening, but its to blame myself on over confident in this subject ending up no double checking...but it won't be happening in my final...i swear to myself.
as for my malaysia studies, i never hope to get high grade or what, as its only a lan subject. but i also can't fail it.

other than those stuff, yesterday evening there is a new house mate ?!?
but i think he would not be going to stay here...
as his parents are not very pleased to the surrounding...
while also all those rubbish or junks or goods that are left behind by the previous previous house mate that had left long time ago.
while the people in charge of the hostel residence people came and blame us for all those stuff??? wtf??
should u blame urself 1st?
when the previous house mate left u who should be coming by to check and clear them up...
but y u waited till got new student come only check??
cute man !!
last time i never thought of the service of Taylor's will be this bad
but now, it seems to be true to me, as their service is really so bad.
what they really care is that they are free and never really look into matters.
and sometimes utilities that are malfunctioning, we complained, but?
they never came to fix so or can say don't even care about it...
or in other words...are they so busy till forget about it ?
only focus on the new student that coming to rent the hostel ?

arghhh

i am more envy now...
Yoshi had the 2009 Big Bang Big Show Concert ne..
T.T i wish i could have it...

sad+emotional+happy+tiring=exciting

yesterday and today was a damn tiring day for me...
yesterday after finish my mid term,
went to Sunway Pyramid to walk walk with Evelyn them...
then till late night only back to hostel...
bu then today morning, around 11 + reach Mid Valley
to shop again...
>< wakao
but i didn't bought much item...
only 1 item that struck my eyes, that is G-Dragon Heartbreaker Album!!
straight buy it without any hesitations





weee~~ finally got it... T.T but do cost me quite an amount...


well, after all those stuff...
today is the new year eve
but i won't be celebrating it with my family nor friend...
but with myself at my hostel...
and the photo below is my dinner XD



and i will be not forwarding any sms to wish new year to all my friends...
as all i know is they are surely busying celebrating or count down...
Happy New Year to my friend ne...
may God bless us all...
and let the 2010 be a better year
goodbye 2009...

really very sad...

today get to know my

english 1st journal

marks 10%

but i only get 6.25%

and it

really does hurt me

deeply

and it is also the lowest mark

in my class ne

T.T

and tml

is going to be my turn to gv the

oral presentation

just hope that

everythings goes nice

but not nasty

only

bad luck ?

felt a bit bad luck previous week...
1st of all my english journal assignment 1, article been reject quite a few in numbers...
but its ok, as it is done...
then on teusday..
my laptop, i had no idea taht what happen on that day
that it suddenly hanged and then blue screen
means there sure is some system or hardware problem...
but i had no idea the main cause of it...
in wednesday it still functioning at the noon
but in the late evening...
it went doom...
by screen...and by that time it just make me confirm that the main cause is by the graphic card or include other hardware...
as the laptop screen doesn't show anything...while the laptop is still processing...

aiks..felt very bad luck ne...
and now somemore need to think of which topic to take up for my assignment... meaningful or fear ??
and later need to study BCP for online quiz...and also find info regarding on advantage and disavantage of E-Learning...

should have not

Aiks,
this week should have not come back to my home town ~
1st factor is
my room had been use by guest, zzz
then i am unable to buy ticket to back KL by tomorrow(Sunday)
due to some reason...

but still ok la...
most unhappy things is unable
to buy the ticket back KL...
feel like shit when saw the notice
"13th Dec 2009 ticket telah habis dijual"
WTF ?

really feel
like
shit
!!!
too angry
till
can't
express
anything
in word
form~

its been a week

after the Sem 1 break
that i had
it's been 1 week
i been studying for my Sem 2
but
it seems
that in physically
i am still in the state
of lazy

next week thursday is
my 1st assignment to be due
but
i had not started anything about it
felt
very very
useless of myself.

currently listening
to
Brown Eyed Girls
Sign
and
other song.

thinking of
someone
that
is
not
meant to
think of.

27, 28 & 29th Nov 2009

today, 28th of Nov is my Gu Jiong daughter wedding.
reach the venue by around 6 p.m but get stuck in the jam for 40 min that cause by an accident.
the wedding dinner should be start by 7 p.m, but it starts at 8:15 p.m that is about 1 hour 15 min "earlier"
about all the photos is uploaded at my facebook.
the food of the restaurant is quite nice....only few are sux~
and 1 more thing, the car that are used is Bentley ~ omfg !!!
the dinner ends around 10 p.m
me and my family head back to the central to sleep at the hotel...
drive quite far from the venue to the hotel, as the hotel is located at the KL Central

wakao for these few days i am totally blur as i did many stupid stuff
about those stuff i won't be telling here.. =P
erm after the day, today, sunday slept till around 9 smtg.
then wake up and get prepared to go eat for our breakfast + lunch.
at the 'Latest Recipe', its a buffet lunch.
very enjoy eating there as the food is not only beautiful but also taste marvelous.


after eating, headed to the KLCC Suria to shop~
lazy to talk about the content.
we just walked for awhile then leave by 5:30 p.m +
ate something nearby that is so sux till i did not remember the name of the restaurant.
head to subang jaya to drop me off
as i am going to start my Sem 2 by tml.

a nice sunset view ???

sux holiday

aiks,
its been awhile
not writing anything.
didn't actually went out with friend
much
what i do is just stay home
and
help out my mom

3 days ago
i scare to fall sick
that is getting a flu/sneeze
then following fever
aiks
till today still sick.
i hope that it went recover soon

my eldest sister just came back from
Aus by this Monday.
but i didn't went
to KLIA to pick up my sis with my family
as
i am staying back to watch over the house
and also
looking over the dogs...
hehe

today
finally is the day where my
result is release
about my result
is as sucks as me
zzz
2 more sem to go
that i need to really work
hard and focus on
it
before everything is too late.
and about my 2 week holiday is going to end soon
as my second semester starts by 30th Nov

but i got to head back to KL
by this saturday
as
me and my family
need to attend a
wedding dinner
then hope that Sunday
able to go shopping
then buy some things that i wanted
short pants
skinny jeans
sneakers

hope everything will go smoothly~

~.~
i am so shit now

drama hours ~

well
i spent more than
11 hours
on
movie
and
drama

about this movie
i would like to gv a rating of
10/10
as it really
does have meaning.

♥

and
about this drama
"Buzzer Beater"
an
eleven Episode
drama
from yesterday
evening
dinner
start watching it
till just now 4:45pm.
hehe
feel great to
watch finish it
as
it's really a nice drama
i give a rating of
9.5/10

♥

DVD's

today doesn't have any activity
just too bored at
my house,
so i decided to
go Jusco
and
buy some
DVD
to watch
hehe ...
buy le around RM150++
haha
2 week times watch finish ??
maybe,
maybe not

any idea??

zzz
how to style my 'grass' hair ne? =/
zzz
really no idea..
feel like want cut short again...

back Ipoh

finally
a short 2 week break for me to back
Ipoh.
yesterday,friday
night
before i go to sleep
started to pack some of my belongings
and
also counted some coins.
well the result of the counting is below

a total amount of Rm 50 from 3 months coins saving.

today evening
reach Ipoh.
1st place to go
is here
hehe
nice ?

can't wait till it finish ..^^

the day....

today is the day
my sem 1
finish !!!

feel damn happy,
although
didn't not do well in my finals.
but hope and wish all at least
at least pass pls

today went Sunway
after the final paper,
moral education.
but today
d
plan wasn't planned so nice =/
hope next sem break
will be planned better ^^
looking forward for it.
but today also have fun ne.
thx all my friend.

well, tomorrow
i will be heading back Ipoh by
1:00 p.m
KTM
reach Ipoh around 4 pm
hehe

Ipoh here i come !!!

at last,
wish all my
course-mates
&
college-mates
enjoy this 2 week sem break

Hwaiting !!!!

disappointed

somehow
i had no idea is it true that
i do like to
self pity
myself
by doing
single thing to perfect

somehow this week finals do
make me feel very moody
English - HD gone or even D is gone
Economics - HD/D is gone
BMA - no idea pass or what
Account - dead (today paper)

for some reason,
it really do hurt myself
as
i have econs and acc
background
but
i did sux
in every paper

and tomorrow is the last paper
that is
moral,
i had no idea what is my course mark
that tell me
i still need how many marks
to at least a C for it

people can't know
what i thinking
and
feeling
even include my family and best friends
so, for a friend
can you really
read my mind?

see me happy
but do i really happy
by that time ?

and this whole week
don't know
what happen to myself
as
stomach keep
not feeling well
few days back
stomachache.
then yesterday gastric.
and today
don't even know what is it...
2 hungry? or 2 full? or got gastric again?
feel so unwell

just hope to back my house
at
Ipoh
and
have a full rest
that is
without
thinking
a single thing
about my study or living.

no mood

actually in the full sentence
is that
i don't have the mood to study.

and some more
this few
days
keep on rain
make ppl feel so...
so...
cold.

4th Nov 2009

today was my
account
English
&
maths
last class...
but too bad able to take photo with
2 lecturer only
1 ran away
due to some reason(interested, sms me)

Ms Christina, our English lecturer

Ms Tham, our Account lecturer

at evening,
need to attend a test.
that is
listening test
but
went to
a disaster
for section 1
zzz, miss out a lot
and wrong many
aiks
sad le...
and some more rain
more sad.

a week before finals

the feeling of me right now
is so blur
that
i can't tell
what feeling i having now
the pressure or stress
is so different
it somehow makes me feel
more pressure than
when i am
sitting for my
SPM

for 2 years i been doing account
but
in this foundation
i can hardly do
the basic of accounting
feel depressed in
a sense of saying
but its more than that
as
many of my course mate doesn't
have the background of account
they did better than me.

6 days more till i face my finals
will i be ready by then?
or will i be crying by that time?

is your own choice.
focus focus...

wow !!!!

a must listen and must watch MV from Big Bang
the opening was. OMG
the song is also. OMG
unbelievable watch urself.

Big Bang - Let Me Hear Your Voice